Open

Open up to me.
Like a daisy waiting for summer sunlight.
Show me your beauty.

Slow Down

I tend to get the jitters when I see you, but being with you settles all the nerves.

I've been struggling mentally lately
because I think I love you.
Wanting to say something
but not knowing how to.

Thank You

My first love.

You stomped my heart into the ground. I have to thank you.
Without you I wouldn't have made it this far.
We broke up. I was so mad, and angry towards you. But that helped me the most. I needed that. I needed to experience the emotions.
You gave me love.
You gave me pain.
And for that, you gave me appreciation.
You helped me live.
You challenged my way of thinking without even knowing it, or being there.
In that way, I have to thank you.

Do You Want to Talk About It?

I've said a lot of words to a bunch of different people.

I've listened to a complete break-up playlist, that I created, at least 25 times.

There are certain details of the relationship that I enjoyed, and certain that I didn't.... and I haven't decided if I should focus on the good ones... or the bad ones more. Both are intriguing.

I'm trying to convince myself, and make myself believe that I will be back to "normal" in a week.

I took it easier than the last.

I have wrote about it.

I still have questions... Questions that I can't, or don't want to ask.

Mainly because I'm not sure how much they really even matter.

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I still have ten days to get "normal."

Come to you

I'm so antsy. Restless.
I want to feel your soft lips connecting to mine.
I want to kiss, the underside of your chin and the corners of your cheeks.
I want to feel your neck with my tongue.
I want to touch.
I want to feel the smooth skin that I've gotten use to.
I want to rub the curves of your waist. Kissing every inch of everything.
I want to touch the small hairs of your neck with my lips, letting warm air hit like summer.
I want to feel your legs until the little hairs stand on ends.

I want to come to you.

Sink-In

I have thought a lot this week.
Thought about this the other night...


I sink into these sheets like a hot tub,
getting away from the midnight.
I sink into these sheets to
sink into dreams that will take me
far away from controlling anxiousness,
away from waiting, away from the cold and the brash.
I'll be awake soon, but rather be sinking
like the Titanic capsizing
if only to get away from all the manic in the world

I'll sink once more tonight.


These are intriguing thoughts that I am having as of late, I'm actually getting a lot of joy and emotion out of them. I really feel like I'm learning for the first time.

Ordinary has become Extraordinary

Girl you're probably wantin' a tattoo'd up, pierced, be all know all
He'll leave you soon after you take that hard fall.
Well honey, that ain't me.
I'm real, not no fantasy
Got a big heart that loves to love 
and I'll tell you you're beautiful everyday.
Roses are my friend, and you'll get some randomly to show I'm there till the end.
I'm not like those other guys, they want the goods;
I want the goods and the bads.

Something that came into my head late at night.
I feel like I'm getting a better hold of myself, and who I am. I lost myself for a while. I think I'm coming back.
I sound crazy. I'm tired of seeing I's, I'm so self centered, but fuck it, this is MY blog. :)

Enjoy your life. as Bruce from "Bruce Almighty" would say; It's Good.